Well, here's my first entry. I haven't blogged in quite a while. Xanga, MySpace, eh. I miss writing in a journal, too. Pen to paper.
I need to make this summer a great one. I just recently got out of an emotionally abusive relationship and was diagnosed with depression and put on antidepressants, and just finished up my first year of college about three weeks ago. It was certainly a rollercoaster first year. First semester was pretty good, second semester sucked. All thanks to that guy. I learned a lot about life, love, relationships, trusting people, school, myself, God, and what really matters. Oh, and swing dancing. I made so many new friends, mainly thanks to The Navigators and Swing Society and Ballroom Dance League. I have so many supportive friends in these groups.
Anyways, about this summer...it's going to be a life-changing one for me. I made a list of things that I would like to do this summer now that I'm free of this guy and his control and manipulation. I want to be a totally different person when I get back to school (the antidepressants help with that, but most of it I want to be me making the changes).
Guys...I can't trust them right now. But I hope I can someday. Because of all that's happened to me, I'm not looking for a relationship right now. If I get asked out on a date (which will be a sign of the Apocalypse), that's cool, and we'll see what happens. I also need to learn to not get emotionally attached so quickly as well.
I turn to God and The Beatles for comfort. I need to get in a habit of reading my Bible. Listening to and playing The Beatles' music is an amazing escape for me. I'm currently listening to "Here Comes the Sun," which I now interpret as the sun coming through the clouds and darkness after a long, cold winter -- which, for my life, the sun stands for starting anew and the darkness is my anger, hurt, depression, and the abusive relationship, and the sun is coming out so I can start fresh and new and leave all my hurt behind. It will still be there, but I can move past it.
Well, I think that's all for now. Off to bed to get up and go shopping!!!
